How Can I Be Brave... When Im Afraid To Fall?
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…: can I trust that you won't run away if I let you go?
Me: yes
He slowly let me go and he let me go, I turned around to face him
Me: yalla start talking
…: look, we can leave this place, we'll leave everything here, I don’t have a life here either, we'll go away to some country, and we'll sing for broadway first, when people see how talented we are, we will be able to take it a step further, we can become a huge hit
Me: bs why leave?? Cant we do it here??
…: they'll be too many distractions from our past here, and there aren’t many recording studios, we won't make it anywhere
Me: ma3arf, I had my plans for a long time, and know suddenly changing, with a guy I just met, and I don’t even know if your plan will work or not!!
…: ohh so you think your plans will?? Magically entering college??
Me: it wasn’t going to happeeen magiicallyy!! I told you I still didn’t figure it out
…: ahaaa okaayy
Me: you know, I still have no idea what your name is
…: hhahahaha im fo2ad
Ok I admit, hes WAAAAY more hotter without a mask on his face!!! He has a golden tan, light brown hair, he's tall and reallyy masculine , and his nose, its soo PERFEECT and straight!!! His eyes are really wide, bringing out the grey :D
Me: nice to meet you fo2ad
Fo2ad: its nice to meet you too layan ;) (Omggg hiss smiilee!! He has dimples shiiittt!!!)
Me: so what now?
Fo2ad: now we get to know each other
Me: hehehe okay
We walked between the old rocks and sat down in a spot, if you're wondering what I mean by 'old mansion' this is it:
We started talking by asking each other questions…
Fo2ad: where do you live?
Me: in jid 7af9, I hate it there
Fo2ad: baaaal, ee akeed you hate it
Me: where do you live?
Fo2ad: m7arag
Me: allaaaay!! Hehe ya3ny m7argyy
Fo2ad: hehe eee
Me: why don’t you like it here? Whats wrong with your life?
Fo2ad: 3ala golat omy, im here by accident, they never wanted to have me, fa ya3ny el7een ma y3amlony zain, w wala chna ana ebnhm, ma yaboony fl bait, ma roo7 mdrsaa, they don’t support my passion towards music, ma ya36oony baizat to live on, w etha bakamlch, ma bnkaml le bacher
Me: ooh, im soryy
Fo2ad: don’t be, they made me stronger
Me: exactlyyyy , I think like that too
Fo2ad: *giggles* do you have any friends??
Me: only two, meera and joud, I can't live without joud she's been my bestfreind since forever, but meera is just a friend, I hardly see her
Fo2ad: so joud is the one who lied to me yesterday haaa?
Me: hhahahaha ee, do you have any friends
Fo2ad: yeaa, many, but I only see them in the club, I met them from there anyways
Me: ahaa, uummm, what else can I askkk….hmmm…. have you ever loved a girl??
Fo2ad: no, never, have you
Me: noo
Fo2ad: whats your weakness??
I looked at him and said: grey eyes, and one more thing I wont tell you, cause you'll take advantage and torture me with it
Fo2ad: hahaha whaat is it??
Me: im not saying… whats your weakness??
Fo2ad: (he smiled at me) green eyes, just like yours
I looked down, and for the first time, I felt like my body was on fire!! I had no idea what was happening too mee!!
Fo2ad: so you never told me whats your second weakness
Me: and I wont ;)
Fo2ad: 3aad layan, I promise I wont take advantage
Me: promise???
Fo2ad: I promise
Me: tickling, I can't take it, I'll do anything just to make you stop
Fo2ad: hahahahaha seriouslyyy
Me: maay'9a7kk okay, w ee seriously
Fo2ad: you'll do anything?? Just to stop a person from tickling you??
Me: yuup, unfortunately
He smiled at me an evil smile and got closer
Me: (backing away) fo2ad yu promised
But he jumped on me and started tickling me :'(
Me: WAHAHAHAHAHAHAA BAA SS FOO2AAD WAHAHA I CANT BREATTH STOOPPPP!!
Fo2ad: nooopeee
Me: WAHAHAHA FO2AAD YOUU PROMISEDD BAASSSS
He stopped, but he didn’t get off me, he was on top of me actually, just smiling
Fo2ad: you have never falled in love right?
Me: right
Fo2ad: neither have I, bs I think im starting ( waaaay 7adaa cutee) so you've never kissed a guy
Me: heehe noo
Fo2ad: have you dreamt of it
I shrugged my shoulders
He started ticklinggg me again Dx
Me: FOOO22AAAADDD BAAAAS WAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAAA
Fo2ad: you'll do anythinggg?!?!
Me: eeeee WAHAHAHA JUST HAHA STOOOOOOOOOP
Fo2ad: then kiss mee
And he stopped tickling me, and I stopped laughing trying to catch my breath and estaw3b what this person is saying
Me: are you crazy?!?!? I just met youu
Fo2ad: it wont be for love, it wont mean anything, ive just always dreamt of the feeling, it'll be an experience for both of us, just to find out what it feels like
Ok to say the truth, I have dreamt of it, and I did want to know what it feels like :$ plus, it won't mean anything right, just an experience
Me: madry fo2aad
He didn’t answer me, but he lowered his face to mine, and then his lips were against mine and he kissed me, his lips were so soft and warm :o and again, a burning sensation started forming inside me, I didn’t want the moment to end, this kiss wasn’t supposed to mean anything!! Why do I feel this waay ?!?! he wouldn’t stop, I didn’t want him to stop anyways :$, I opened my eyes slightly, and my heart dropped, I saw the guy, agaaain, !! from that night, he was just staring down at us ngazt w 9ara5t and I backed away and sat up straight
Fo2ad: laayaan shfeech?!!? Are you okay
I didn’t know what was wrong with me, he's not there anymore, but fear overcame me, I saw him, im sure I saw him, I was breathing heavily, really heavily and fast too, I didn’t have the strength to talk anymore, I was scared, terrified, I didn’t know why, I wanted to run, far away, just to get away, im terrified, but I had no power to get up
Fo2ad: layaan hadaaay shfeech, tnafsyy 3adeel layaaan
But I couldn’t, it wasn’t in my hands, I couldn’t breathe properly, I automatically inhaled and exhaled fast and deep, I wanted to cry so bad, if I wasn’t already, I couldn’t figure out, then I heard someone whisper in my ear
…: yeaa honey, im here for you
Me: AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
I jumped into fo2ads arms and started crying my eyes out, I have the same feeling, the feeling I get in my dreams when I re-live that night, the fear of dying, the fear of wondering how I'll live without my family again
Me: FO2AAD LAZEM NROO7 BSR3AAAA
Fo2ad: LAYAAN GA3DA T5AR3EENYY SHFEECH
Me: FO2AD THEYRE HEREEE, THEYRE HEREE AND THEYRE GOING TO KILL MEE!! FO2AD WE NEED TO GOOOO
Fo2ad: LAYAAN THERES NO ONE HEREE LOOK AROUNDD
But im sure theyre here, theyre just hiding!! I wana leave before they kill meee!! Why wont fo2ad understand me, my face was flooded with tears
Me: FO2AD I SAW HIM, AND I HEARD HIM, WEE NEED TO GOOO NOOOOW PLEASEEE
Fo2ad: shhhh layaan just calm down
Me: FO2AD HOW CAN I CALM DOWN THEYRE GOING TO KILL US BOTH!! I STILL DON’T HAVE THEE KEEEY !!!!
Fo2ad got out his phone, dialed a number, got up and went away so that I wont hear him, and started talking to someone
Me: FO2AD DON’T LEAVE ME THEY'LL KILL MEE
..,: (whispering in my ears) yeaa, if yu don’t give us the key, we will kill you
Me: AAAAAA FOO2AAAADDDD!!!
He came back running to me, I got up, took my guitar and took his hand and started running, I don’t care if he wont listen, we need to get out of this place nooww!!!
Fo2ad: LAYAAAN WAIIN HADAAAY!!
ME: LAAA FOO2AAAD BTHB7OONAAA
Fo2ad: LAYAAAN WHOOO WILL?!!? THERES NO ONE HEREEE
Me: THEYREEE HIDDINGGG!!!
Fo2ad: WHOOO ISS
Me: THEEE GUYS FROM THAAT NIGGHTTT !! (SOBBING) PLEASEE FO2AD WE NEEED TO GOOO
But he took my hand and pulled me back, stopping me from running, then I saw ambulance coming toward us … why are they here??? What do they want, two guys ran up to us
Me: mnn entww shtabooon?!?
Fo2ad: calm down layan, theyre here to help youu
Me: LAAA THEY’LL KILL MEE!!
Im sure theyre here disguised , to kill me !! fo2ad wont know that they will, he thinks theyre doctors :'''O
Me: goomaaawww
They held me down and injected something into me! Shitt akeed poison, but I felt numb, I dropped on the floor and saw fo2ads face, then I shut out
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TO BE CONITINUED
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