X$ !!! I held on him tightly, and he drove off, shiiittt he drives fast!!! LIKE REAALYY FAST!! We reached that place in a few minutes, ok it isn’t a house, it's more of a room!! We entered and he sat down against bricked wall, this place was not painted, it was only bricks, but the inside was seriously cute! He had a tiny light hanging on the short ceiling, the floor was covered with blankets, and each wall had a pile of pillows against it, there was a tiny shelf on one of the walls, filled with books, statues, candles, and basically souvenirs…
Me: shit 7aadaa cuuttee!! You come here a lot I guess
Fo2ad: not a lot, I go to the old mansion more
Me: ee bs mny more decorated
Fo2ad: that's because yu haven't seen the FULL mansion
Me: shdaa5aaal im always there, I know it better than my own home
Fo2ad: oh yea? Did you know there was a basement??
Me: a basement??
Fo2ad: thought soo, we'll go tomorrow, I'll show you
Me: mmm, okay so what's so important?
Fo2ad: Layan you said that we'll leave when joud graduates, so that we can go with her, I mean while she goes to college
Me: eee
Fo2ad: enzain do you know that seniors, yes I mean her too, are graduating in two months
Me: WHAT?!? How do you know this??
Fo2ad: I have my ways
Me: enzain that’s not enough time, we still don’t have enough money, we need the ticket, we need food, we need a place to stay, we need rides, we need---
Fo2ad: I know, bs that’s not my concern now
Me: then what is
Fo2ad: it's you
Me: me?? fo2ad I promised you I would never set you uuup!! And you did too
Fo2ad: layaan I know, enty sm3eenyy laa, I mean are you sure you want this, are you ready for chances that we fail, are you ready for anything?!?! Do you know how hard this is going to be??Do you know what you're getting yourself into?
Me: fo2ad nothing will be harder than what I had to face, I've passed every single obstacle that came in my way, and I've had MANY obstacles, trust mee…im ready for this, im ready for anything as long as it will take me out of this life and into a new one
Fo2ad: sseeee
Me: see whaaat?!?!
Fo2ad: you're not doing it for the will, you're doing it to run away from here, what if you find something better out there, and change your mind, I need to know if your fully committed to this
Me: fo2aad what will, my will is to escape this life, not to run away from it, I went to leave this life, and I want a new one, and how exactly do you expect me to find something better, where will I, music is all I have…im 100% committed fo2ad
Fo2ad: so you're sure you want to do this?
Me: yeaa im sure
Fo2ad: el7amdilla, I want you to think about the last things you want to do in this life, before we leave, and start doing them, think of them now
He gave me a paper and a pen and I started listing them, while fo2ad read them
1) Say bye to Emily
2) Climb m7arags huge bridge thing to the top
3) Tell the rat and witch how I feel about them: D
4) Spend a whole day with Joud's family (as saying good-bye)
5) Have a photo shoot in the old mansion, to take it's memories with me
Me: uummm shnow ba3ad
Fo2ad: layan think deeply (like he had something in mind he wanted me to do :s, and then I figured out :'/ )
6) Visit my families grave for the last time
7) Visit my old house, for the last time
As I wrote them down, I could see fo2ad smiling from the corner of my eyes
Fo2ad: exactly
We spend the rest of the night planning a little deeper, until it turned 4:00 am each of us took a particular spot, and went to sleep
To be continued
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