Chapter 28

hey guyss! soryy i know its late but i have exams tese days and its hard fitting this in! i didnt have time to edit this chapter so soryy for the spelling mistakes! love you alll <3 enjoy... xoxo
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Emily: ok I know you are going to be really mad at us for not telling you, and you will have to understand, you will have to keep calm and remember what happened is past and gone okay love?

Me: Emily…what happened?

Emily: look the night everything happened, it was too much for you to handle, and so you… or you're conscience decided to … lets say forget some things

Me: Emily what are you saying…I forget things??

Emily: not like that… sweet peep you lost half you're memory

Me: WHAT!?!?

Rashid: Shhh layan it'll be alright

Me: HOW WILL IT BE ALRIGHT?!? WHY DIDN’T YOU TELL MEE?!?! WHAT HAVE I BEEN MISSING OUT

I turned back at fo2ad, who was still in the same position, his face dug inside his palms

Me: fo2ad?... you knew?

He slowly lifted his head and faced me, and when he was about to say something, Emily said:

Emily: no hun when he found out, he convinced us to tell you

Me: ok why didn’t you tell me before?!?! Why does this have to be a secret?!? Why do I remember only some stuff?? Did I actually have a life before that night?? Emily you don't realize the confusion you've maadeee

Emily: layaan honey calm down!! I need you to listen carefully, before I tell you the rest, you nee—

Me: THERES MORE?!?!?

Rashid: (he sat on his knees in front of me) layan, haday! 5ala9 gltlch everything will be ok, sm3eeha thy madry shsmhaa, oo haday, oo 7awly tt8abelain el maw'9oo3 shwy shwy, okk looloo?

Me: (madry laish bs I suddenly miss him, and it feels like years since I've last seen him! Bs he was with me the whole journey? Wasn't he? ) enshalla

Emily: ok listen up sweet peep, I don’t know what can happen to you once I tell you, you might have another mental breakdown, you might…ok you don’t need to know the consequences, but I need you to promise, to try to stay with us, don’t leave us again, we have hope in you

Is this why fo2ad was acting like that before we got here? 7ayaatyyyy :'( he's afraid of loosing me!

I got up, went to fo2ad, pulled him up and hugged him the tightest I could ever hug and I whispered

Me: I promise I won’t forget

Then I went back to Emily

Me: okk… start talking

And they told me the whole story, they told me that I'm afraid of something, they told me that I have the wrong story in my mind, they told me that I was never raped and they told me that I forget about Rashid until the day of the vow, they told me that I have a wrong picture of my life, in other words, I've been living a lie :)

I suddenly started crying, everyone tried there best to calm me down, but they don’t know what it feels like, to be alive for so long, and suddenly find out that they've been living a lie! So what is the truth?! Is there actually truth?!?! And how should I know that I can trust the truth?!? Because when I did trust it, turns out that the truth was a lie!

I rested my head on fo2ad's shoulder until I fell asleep

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My mum was on the bed being rapped, while all of us were watching her, I was the only one not yet harmed, I was the only one not fully covered in blood, we all screamed for help, but no-one could hear us.

Baba: YAAAAAL 5AAMAAA ENTAWWW MA T5AFOOON RABKM?!?! HDOOOHAAAA

My sister who was tied next to the bed screamed in fear and in pain

My dad kept trying to stop them, I think he was hurting the most, but they wouldn’t stop

My brother was swearing at them

I was just standing there crying and screaming, wondering when the night mare will end. This is all my fault!! Why did I pick up the stupid keeey?!?! Whhyyyy ?!? I tried hard to untie my hands but they were to tight. I looked to my left, and found the closet handle, and I immediately thought that I can untie the rope with that.

When I was about to move guy 1 shouted

Guy 1: yaa sallaaaaaam!! Yallaaa ely 3gbhaa

Then guy 2 threw my mother on the floor and tied her up, then he took my sister, and as she screamed her lungs out… they raped her too

I knew I was next, I quickly moved and started untying the ropes with the help of the handle, until I was finally loose, and I shaked them off, in fear, I looked at my dad and he moved his lips and said

Dad:  go…now

I moved my lips back and said: I cant leave you

Dad: call the police

And I nodded my head, my brother just looked at us in fear and in some kind of hope.

I slowly moved out of the room, trying not to let them see me, I called the police and told them to come here as soon as possible, then I went to my dad's office and took the gun he hid under the broken wooden floor, and I slowly went back upstairs

When I went inside the room, everyone was still screaming, I held up the gun, ready to shoot them, but I couldn’t press the trigger!! Yallaaa layaaan yalllaaaa!! Shfeeeccch !! just shoooot theeeem !! you have there baacksss just pull thee stupiid trigger!! But it was too late, guy 2 turned around and saw me

Baba: YAAALLAAAAAA

And I finally pulled the trigger, but I lost control it was so harsh! I didn’t aim at him properly and I shot the wall instead

Guy 2: allah allaah!! 6l3teen 9ij 7a8eeraaa

They threw my sister on the floor, tied me tightly to the bed  and sliced each one of my family, bit by bit, and when they were ready to rape me, the police came in… I was screaming, screaming really loudly and---

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Fo2ad: layaaaaan! Layaan shfeecchh goomy

Me: AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

Rashid: Emily whats wrong with her

Emily: she remembers

Joud: layaan hadaaay 7abeebtyy

Me: OMGG

And I cried my eyes out

Emily: hun what did you remember

Me: ITS ALL MY FAULT!! I COULD HAVE SAVED THEEEM!! I COULDN’T SHOOT HIM!! I COULD HAVE SAVED MY FAMILY!! BUT I DIDDNTT SHOOOT HIMMM!!! WHAAATT THEE HELL WAS WRONG WITH ME!! I KILLEDD MY OWN FAMILY!! THEY'RE DEAD BECAUSE …. BECAUSEE OFF MEEEEEE

To be continued…