Chapter 24

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Me: I lost half my memory??

Joud: … (her mouth was open because she wanted to say something, but she found nothing) aa….ii….umm

Me: ya3ny yu know??

Joud: layan i…

Me: JOUD SHLAA MA GLTEENLY

Joud: shhhh layan your making a scene , ta3aly

She pulled my hand and we went inside the same room

Me: YALLAA E7KYY JOUD!! LAISH MA 2OOLTEELY

(when im mad, I switch Palestinian, and I start talking my own language, madry laish, bs yeaa)

Joud: layan calm down, listen to me

Me: IM LISTENINGG

Joud: layaan im soryy I didn’t tell you, bs I couldn’t, it wasn’t my choice they told me not too

Me: yea of course they did!! 6ayeb laaisshh, laiishh ma a3rf???

Joud: layaaan I cant tell you im not allowed

Me: (I got scared for some reason, but I don’t know whats going on, I started to tear a little) joud please 2ooleely…shoo 9ar

Joud: layan ma ba2dar, im soryy, I promise bokra mnroo7 3nd Emily oo I'll ask her if I can tell you

Me: joud is it anything dangerous

Joud: …

Me: is it anything to do with that night

Joud: …

That made me cry a little more

Joud: layan please don’t cry (she hugged me)

Me: inzain how do I remember you and not Rashid, he was my best friend before you

Joud: yea I know, that’s why everyone is confused, bs they brought all of us to you in the hospital, after that night, and I was the only one you remembered, you looked at Rashid for a couple of seconds, said he was familiar, but then you started crying because you thought he was going to kill you

Me: WHAT?!?!

Joud: layan you were still affected by what happened, and for some reason, I was the only one you could trust

Me: omg (I cried a little more in shock)

Joud: layan Its not your fault, stop crying

Me: does fo2ad know

Fo2ad: do I know what

Me and joud: aaaa(we screamed in shock)

Fo2ad: bsmellaa shfee--- layaaan???

He ran up to me and held my face

Fo2ad: layan shfeech

Me: joud does he know?

Fo2ad: do I know what?!?!

Joud: laa he doesn’t know, no one who came into your life after that night knows

Fo2ad: heeelloooo?!?! Do I know whaaaat??

Joud: layan lost half her memory

Fo2ad:……what?

Exactly. What? So I did have a life before that, I did have friends…but im the one who forgot them, im the one who left them! Why didn’t anyone tell me? Why don’t I know? Whats the secret? I thought this was all over! But everytime im happy, I find something else out that brings that night up again.

I fell into fo2ads arms helplessly crying, I didn’t know what else to do! Im sick of this

Me: (sobbing and crying) I thought this end, I thought I can move on, but nooo!! Something will still come up and bight me !! something is always theereee!! Laisshh ana haik laaaish?!?! Allaaah ya5odny w y5al9ny mn hal m9eeebe!! Ya rabyy sa3dnyyy!! Ya rabyy 5ale9nyyyy!! Wlkm allah y3azbkm b naar jaahaaanaaam enshalla!! Ye5rebaitkm shoo sawaitoo feeny!! Allaaa y3azbkkm b naar jahaaanaaaam

Fo2ad: layaaan calm down please not again!! Joud shga3da t5arb6

Joud: ga3da etsb bl feles6eenyyy!!sh8a9dk not again?? Fo2ad na5eth,ha el mstashfaaa??

Fo2ad: laa she'll be fine, im sure !

Joud: fo2ad choof 7alat,haa

Fo2ad: joud, this always happens, tgoom sa3at fl lail w tsawy nafs el 7arakaat, w trd targd, oo fl 9b7 wala chna 9ar shay!!

Joud: 99ijj?!?!?

Fo2ad's side:

Me: ee 9ij

Layaan: (tamat etsb fl fls6eeny)

Joud: inzain how do you calm her dowwwn?!?!

Me: madryy!! Ehya broo7ha, t76 ras'ha 3ala my lap w targd

Joud: 3ayaaal do itt

I sat on the little couch and pulled layan and lied her down on my lap, she stayed crying for another 5 mins, and then she fell asleep

Joud: fo2ad shnsawy el7een?

Me: madry joud madry

Joud: should I make them wait aw agoolhm yroo7oon

Just as I was about to say another word layan woke up

Layan: (stretching) shitt rgadtt

Joud looked at me in confusion and I gave her a stare like *shhhh*

Layan: omg ma9adig laish?

Fo2ad: knt ga3d mny w enty yaity w 7a6ety rasch w rgadty. Simple as that

Joud: umm layan tathkereen who were the last people you spoke to ?

Layan: umm ee rashood oo meera, laish?

TO BE CONTINUED